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The Face in the Jar
Jun. 25th, 2016 10:15 amBelieve it or not, and I know some of you are going to go for not, I am a shy person. I have learned over the years how to be an extrovert in an introvert’s body. Not an easy thing to do but I can do it and quite well.
Peter and I joke about the two Peter’s that exist in his body. There is his public face and his private face. I have the privilege of seeing both.
And I do the same thing. My public face is pretty much my private face with the exception that I monitor my mouth more in public and think before I speak of what impact what I might be saying or typing might effect others. I am honest in all things which freaks some people out.
I also hate talking on the phone and much rather text or email.
We are about to embark on the second part of Convention season shortly. I will be with Peter and Caroline talking to friends and fans about various topics. I am on some panels at several of these conventions. I will speak on topics that I have knowledge and hold my own if a debate occurs.
I have learned the art of public speaking overtime. It did not come naturally to me. I use to be terrified of speaking in front of a group but by just having to do it, I have gotten over my anxiety and now am fine. I have been informed by some that they are jealous of the easy way I speak in public but they don’t know how hard fought it was to get to that point.
I know I put on a good face even when I am in my pit of despair. There are a handful of people who can tell what is really going on with me but they have known me for a very long time so they know my tells. Apparently my eyes give me away. They do say that the eyes are the windows to the soul.
Right now things are a little out of balanced and I am trying to get myself back to my center. However life seems to be taking delight in kicking me rather hard both mentally and physically. So my chant has been ‘this too shall pass’ and hoping that I am right. Going to the gym helps. Getting things done helps. Figuring out a story or puppet helps too. Listing out what I HAVE gotten done rather than what I haven’t can help because it shows me that I am still moving forward even thought I feel like I am stuck.
I will continue to work towards coming out of this episode so I can have fun again doing things I enjoy doing.
I am grateful for the things that keep me going.
Peter and I joke about the two Peter’s that exist in his body. There is his public face and his private face. I have the privilege of seeing both.
And I do the same thing. My public face is pretty much my private face with the exception that I monitor my mouth more in public and think before I speak of what impact what I might be saying or typing might effect others. I am honest in all things which freaks some people out.
I also hate talking on the phone and much rather text or email.
We are about to embark on the second part of Convention season shortly. I will be with Peter and Caroline talking to friends and fans about various topics. I am on some panels at several of these conventions. I will speak on topics that I have knowledge and hold my own if a debate occurs.
I have learned the art of public speaking overtime. It did not come naturally to me. I use to be terrified of speaking in front of a group but by just having to do it, I have gotten over my anxiety and now am fine. I have been informed by some that they are jealous of the easy way I speak in public but they don’t know how hard fought it was to get to that point.
I know I put on a good face even when I am in my pit of despair. There are a handful of people who can tell what is really going on with me but they have known me for a very long time so they know my tells. Apparently my eyes give me away. They do say that the eyes are the windows to the soul.
Right now things are a little out of balanced and I am trying to get myself back to my center. However life seems to be taking delight in kicking me rather hard both mentally and physically. So my chant has been ‘this too shall pass’ and hoping that I am right. Going to the gym helps. Getting things done helps. Figuring out a story or puppet helps too. Listing out what I HAVE gotten done rather than what I haven’t can help because it shows me that I am still moving forward even thought I feel like I am stuck.
I will continue to work towards coming out of this episode so I can have fun again doing things I enjoy doing.
I am grateful for the things that keep me going.
