There are Times

[puppetmaker]

When I can’t really talk about what I want to talk about.

I learned at an early age of the Internet that what one says on the Internet doesn’t go away as much as one thinks it might.

Then I got involved with Peter which changed the parameters again. He was in the middle of a divorce and so I was careful about what I said out on the World Wide Web. I didn’t want to cause him any grief or trouble that could be traced back to something I casually said.

The job at Del Rey added another layer of thinking of “Do I say this?” Because there were times that I really wanted to says some things that might be misconstrued. Adding the Star Wars lock on what I can say and all the NDAs (None Disclosure Agreements) I have signed over the years or Peter has signed that I am a part of, there became a lot I can’t talk about or when I can, I forget that I can now talk about it.

Now I am married to Peter and have a child of my own which again changed the parameters of what I say and don’t say.

I can feel safe that what I have said over the years if someone went back and looked at it, I would get a job or whatever. Caroline can read it safely.

I can say that I have always been honest out here on the Internet. If I typed it, I believe it when I typed it. If I found out I was wrong, I admitted it. I have held my tongue as others have libeled my husband and my friends. I don’t break confidences. As much as I might want to say something or correct something, I don’t. I learned that it doesn’t really help and I do know what is the reality of the situation(s).

So I continue to blog about my life and things I find interesting. And I hope others enjoy reading it.

There are just times that I wish I could say some things but I know better so I don't.

I am grateful for the things I can talk about safely.

Comments

[theafaye.livejournal.com]

I find it sad that some things happen that I'd love to share on LJ and I know that I can't for one reason or another. Discretion is important though and although I get the argument that says that before computers, if you told someone a secret, there was nothing to stop them repeating them, when something's in black and white, that definitely changes things. There are things that I'd say to someone in person that I wouldn't put in writing. Partly though that's because context matters and I know that there are times that something can look absolutely terrible in writing when in context, they're absolutely fine (I'm thinking about the time that a couple of people thought that I'm completely under the thumb thanks to a tongue in cheek comment on LJ).

I enjoy reading you and I'm especially enjoying hearing about Caroline growing up and Peter getting better. I hope that one day you guys will be in the same country again and we can hang out.