LJ Idol Week 1 Topic: Am I Crazy?

[puppetmaker]

At first glance I thought we were talking about the creator of this writing contest and that would be Gary and the answer is “duh”. No, in all seriousness Gary is not crazy but he is a serious fan geek with a sweet personality and a big heart.

Then my mind when OH! Am I crazy? Well depends on how you define crazy. As I have stated before back in grad school I was diagnosed with depression, which sorted itself out for the most part when I got out of grad school. A couple of years later I received a better diagnosis of Season Affected Disorder aka the Winter Blues and I have learned to handle it over time with some trial and error. I recognize that I have an onset and deal with it with the tools I have in my mental toolbox.

I am imaginative and creative which once was looked upon in history as being a little crazy. I would have made a good protagonist for a Bronte novel. Fortunately how I am now is looked on as a little more normal. I remembered when we use to crack jokes about the Mundanes at science fiction or media conventions. Now a lot of them join us at DragonCon. Geek has street cred now.

I work in the entertainment industry which, honestly, you need to be a little crazy to work in since the standard laws of work and job don’t really seem to apply a lot of the time.

I have always known that the way my brain worked was a little different than most peoples. But then that is true for every brain on the planet. No two people really think exactly alike and crazy for one maybe perfectly normal for another.

My life may look chaotic from the outside looking in but to me it is my life and I am living it the best I can. It can get exciting but most of it is pretty normal for me.

Currently I am dealing a lot with the rather life changing event of my husband having had a stroke. Our lives and future is rather upside down as we try to cope with how this has effected us and what the effect will be in the future to the family. I am in the middle of a bunch of uncertainty peppered with both good and bad news.

So I may not be crazy but my life sure is right now.

This has been my entry for the Live Journal Idol Version A Week 1. I hope you liked it and will vote for me when the poll goes up. Thank you.

Comments

[kittenboo.livejournal.com]

Sometimes life just is crazy and there is nothing we can do about it. I hope things are looking up for Peter.

[jenny_evergreen]

You would make an AWESOME Bronte protagonist!

I'm glad so far that there seems to be more good news than bad with Peter's recovery.

[myrna-bird.livejournal.com]

Now a crazy life: I think everybody can relate to that!

[kandigurl.livejournal.com]

"Geek has street cred now."

That is certainly true!

I wonder if you'd be willing to share any tips from your tool box on handling the Winter blues? I'm pretty sure I get it too, because Winter seems to be when all of my best laid plans fall apart...

[fourzoas.livejournal.com]

It's amazing how much external chaos/insanity we can find ourselves enduring! I hope things start looking up for you soon!

[occasionally.livejournal.com]

I think that one of the good things about learning to deal with mental illness is that it becomes easier to make the distinction between being crazy and the circumstances of your life being such. Wishing you and your family much luck as you deal with your husband's stroke.

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

That is pretty chaotic. I hope your husband recovers well.

[lrig-rorrim.livejournal.com]

It's rough when things are up in the air and unsettled. I wish you all the best in coping with the stroke and its after effects.

[momebie.livejournal.com]

Oh man, I would have made such a good Bronte character in college. I would have deserved being stuck in that attic, though. Heh.

I sometimes feel like keeping my life busy gives me less time to ultimately be actually crazy.

[oneonthefence.livejournal.com]

Just adding a "this" to this comment because dammit, I was thinking the exact same thing.

Keep on coping and managing.

[halfshellvenus.livejournal.com]

I loved your initial interpretation of the prompt as referring to Gary. And you know, that would have been a legitimate approach to take, too!

"Street cred" geekery-- it's true. :D

[cheshire23.livejournal.com]

Crazy is relative and unspecific, isn't it?

I hope things get better for you and your husband.

[noodledays.livejournal.com]

good wishes to you and your husband as you deal with the new parameters of your lives.