Mental Health Week : Meh

The word “Meh” was a sound on the Simpsons that became a real word used in every day conversation especially if you have teenagers in the house. Yes, I know its Yiddish origins but Simpsons gave us the word and showed it in action.

According to the dictionary it has come to mean expressing a lack of interest or enthusiasm

I have what I call my Meh days, days in which I cannot come up with the strength to care about anything. Meh is going through the motions because it is expected of me.

Many people think that depression is being sad all the time and if a depressed person shows any sign of being happy then they aren’t really depressed. Yes, I have honestly been told that.

Sad is one feeling but Meh is another one that can just be there day in and day out.

There is no motivation to do anything. I just want to curl up into a ball and not deal with the world. Things that might have excited me just don’t.

There was a time that is exactly what I did. Except when I had to eat or work, I just did nothing. Couldn't read or write or build puppets or any creative activity. It was not that I didn’t want to, I just could not find the energy to do so. And that sent me into a downward tailspin that I had a hard time putting out of.

Life was seriously Meh.

I know that I am doing better when my interest in the creative kicks back in. I start planning puppets or writing again. I become engaged in fandom again.

I know people who make it from day to day living for either their vacation or a convention or some movie coming down the pike. It gives them something to live for. Other than that they feel like their lives are pretty much Meh.

I have seen a couple of people who are already doing a countdown to the next DragonCon because it gives them something to look forward too. See my entry on Con Drop for more on this. I think I posted it a week or so ago.

Right now I have a bunch of things to deal with and I have the creative itch that I am going to have to wait to scratch for at least a week.

I don’t feel the meh right now. I am more in a panic mode of ‘can I get this really done?’ Which I will and it will be fine.

I have found ways for me to push through the meh to where I care again about the world around me. Having Caroline and Peter in my life has helped me a lot. I have people counting on me to be there for them and I know that they are there for me when I need them.

But there are still times that meh is my way of life and I recognize it and just keep moving forward until I regain interest.

I am grateful for that which is not meh.