LJ Idol Week 1 Topic: Am I Crazy?

At first glance I thought we were talking about the creator of this writing contest and that would be Gary and the answer is “duh”. No, in all seriousness Gary is not crazy but he is a serious fan geek with a sweet personality and a big heart.

Then my mind when OH! Am I crazy? Well depends on how you define crazy. As I have stated before back in grad school I was diagnosed with depression, which sorted itself out for the most part when I got out of grad school. A couple of years later I received a better diagnosis of Season Affected Disorder aka the Winter Blues and I have learned to handle it over time with some trial and error. I recognize that I have an onset and deal with it with the tools I have in my mental toolbox.

I am imaginative and creative which once was looked upon in history as being a little crazy. I would have made a good protagonist for a Bronte novel. Fortunately how I am now is looked on as a little more normal. I remembered when we use to crack jokes about the Mundanes at science fiction or media conventions. Now a lot of them join us at DragonCon. Geek has street cred now.

I work in the entertainment industry which, honestly, you need to be a little crazy to work in since the standard laws of work and job don’t really seem to apply a lot of the time.

I have always known that the way my brain worked was a little different than most peoples. But then that is true for every brain on the planet. No two people really think exactly alike and crazy for one maybe perfectly normal for another.

My life may look chaotic from the outside looking in but to me it is my life and I am living it the best I can. It can get exciting but most of it is pretty normal for me.

Currently I am dealing a lot with the rather life changing event of my husband having had a stroke. Our lives and future is rather upside down as we try to cope with how this has effected us and what the effect will be in the future to the family. I am in the middle of a bunch of uncertainty peppered with both good and bad news.

So I may not be crazy but my life sure is right now.

This has been my entry for the Live Journal Idol Version A Week 1. I hope you liked it and will vote for me when the poll goes up. Thank you.

Taking A Long Term View

Yesterday I posted a pretty honest run down on Peter’s progress on his site. I figure I am going to be doing that while he is in rehab. It looks like the original release date is going to hold because of some issues with his arm that they want to deal with before releasing him to out patient rehab and back home to us.

Today I have to take some pictures of the house for the team at the rehab center so they know what Peter is dealing with when he comes home to us. Entrances to the house, paths through the house, the bathrooms, and a few other things that they need to help Peter navigate the house safely.

We have cancelled all his convention appearances until May. We will see where we are in March before we decide on the next couple of conventions. Eventually he will return to the convention circuit but it will be different for a while.

Right now our lives are a bit up in the air and will be for a while until the new norm is in place. But eventually this too shall pass and we will pick up the pieces and move on with our lives. The picture is coming a little more into focus each week and my list of “things to be done” gets longer but again this is a short-term situation and I am looking towards the long term. Things have changed and will continue to change and that is the new norm right now.

I think first on my plate is sitting down for a while and writing everything down. I need to put together several different pieces of paper and sort out some events by putting them down on the family calendar. I am feeling a little discombobulated and overwhelmed at the moment. If I can sort things out to a tentative schedule, then I will feel a little more in control.

I am working on not getting sick. Yesterday afternoon I started feeling really bad and out of sorts. This morning I am running a very low fever but I don’t feel like I did when I went to bed. I am still sore but that could be from exercising because I upped my weight on all my leg exercises. I am fatigued but I don’t feel like I was run over by a large semi which is where I thought I was heading last night. So lots of fluids are in my game plan for the day and maybe chicken noodle soup for lunch.

I continue to deal with the short term and anticipate the long term. It is hard but it needs to be done for myself and my family.

I am grateful for progress on a couple of fronts.