It is OK to Step Back
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puppetmakerThursday May 14, 2020 Day 60 of the Homebound Saga
Right now, we are both overwhelmed with information and frustrated by too little information.
As to when the stay at home order will be lifted for our areas, it seems like Russian Roulette in more ways than one. That is still the unknown as we still do not have the testing in place to trace the path of the virus among other issues.
Then there is the information and misinformation that is just about everywhere and sorting it out can be mentally tiring.
When I can’t even watch the late-night shows or the comedic takes on the news without feeling my stomach drop to my knees, I know it is time to take a step back to give myself some time to process things and calm down.
And I give myself permission to do so.
Taking a break from the noise of the world is not a bad thing to do. It is not cowardly to take some time to recover from the trauma of what is going on around us.
It is not selfish to practice a little self-care.
There is a lot I am worried about that are consequences of the virus and the lock down and taking some time to sort through those feelings without adding more things to worry about is what I need to do for me.
My walks with Caroline are a must every day to get out of the house and spend some time in the sunshine. Those walks have become very important to me and to Caroline because it gives her time to talk to me about what is bothering her or something that she found funny or whatever comes to mind. I have been telling her about my time as a stage manager and the other jobs I worked over the years. The two things we don’t talk about is the virus or politics. This is an agreement between us that has worked well.
Typing an entry a day in my web log has also become important to me. It gives me a place to talk about whatever is on my mind. I try to help others through my writings, so they know they are not the only person who feels like this. I talk frankly about depression and mental health because I believe, strongly, that it needs to be talked about out in the open. It is not bad to talk about how you feel. And how you feel is valid.
Working on various creative projects is an outlet for me. I am hoping to do more of those shortly. Writing is another thing that I am using to get my anger and frustration out. These works will probably never see the light of day but getting them out helps me.
My back deciding it hates me has not helped my mood. I do get frustrated that I cannot do more in a day on a regular day. When I can do little to nothing, my squirrel brain goes into overdrive bring up each and every failure it can come up with. The ‘you should be’ voice rings loud. And when I cannot seem to find a way to relieve the pain and muscle stress, that voice gets even louder. I am not a good sick or injured person.
Today I have to venture out for my weekly visit to the grocery store to get us the things we need for the week. This will include a post office stop and CVS run with a possible hardware store stop. That will take most of my morning. This afternoon Caroline and I will walk and talk. I also have a copy edited manuscript to read over of my next short story.
That’s my day. Hope yours goes well for you.
I am grateful that I can vent to my husband and he knows that is what I am doing.
Right now, we are both overwhelmed with information and frustrated by too little information.
As to when the stay at home order will be lifted for our areas, it seems like Russian Roulette in more ways than one. That is still the unknown as we still do not have the testing in place to trace the path of the virus among other issues.
Then there is the information and misinformation that is just about everywhere and sorting it out can be mentally tiring.
When I can’t even watch the late-night shows or the comedic takes on the news without feeling my stomach drop to my knees, I know it is time to take a step back to give myself some time to process things and calm down.
And I give myself permission to do so.
Taking a break from the noise of the world is not a bad thing to do. It is not cowardly to take some time to recover from the trauma of what is going on around us.
It is not selfish to practice a little self-care.
There is a lot I am worried about that are consequences of the virus and the lock down and taking some time to sort through those feelings without adding more things to worry about is what I need to do for me.
My walks with Caroline are a must every day to get out of the house and spend some time in the sunshine. Those walks have become very important to me and to Caroline because it gives her time to talk to me about what is bothering her or something that she found funny or whatever comes to mind. I have been telling her about my time as a stage manager and the other jobs I worked over the years. The two things we don’t talk about is the virus or politics. This is an agreement between us that has worked well.
Typing an entry a day in my web log has also become important to me. It gives me a place to talk about whatever is on my mind. I try to help others through my writings, so they know they are not the only person who feels like this. I talk frankly about depression and mental health because I believe, strongly, that it needs to be talked about out in the open. It is not bad to talk about how you feel. And how you feel is valid.
Working on various creative projects is an outlet for me. I am hoping to do more of those shortly. Writing is another thing that I am using to get my anger and frustration out. These works will probably never see the light of day but getting them out helps me.
My back deciding it hates me has not helped my mood. I do get frustrated that I cannot do more in a day on a regular day. When I can do little to nothing, my squirrel brain goes into overdrive bring up each and every failure it can come up with. The ‘you should be’ voice rings loud. And when I cannot seem to find a way to relieve the pain and muscle stress, that voice gets even louder. I am not a good sick or injured person.
Today I have to venture out for my weekly visit to the grocery store to get us the things we need for the week. This will include a post office stop and CVS run with a possible hardware store stop. That will take most of my morning. This afternoon Caroline and I will walk and talk. I also have a copy edited manuscript to read over of my next short story.
That’s my day. Hope yours goes well for you.
I am grateful that I can vent to my husband and he knows that is what I am doing.
