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It is the UNKNOWN that is bugging me
Mar. 19th, 2020 11:05 amOr Day 4 of the housebound saga
If this were a snowstorm or even a hurricane, we would have at least some idea of when the light at the end of the tunnel was not the oncoming train. Right now, we have an opened ended crisis with a lot of guessing as to what it next.
On the positive side of the equation, unlike a heavy snowstorm or hurricane, we have power, Wi-Fi, running water, and gas.
I will admit to not doing well with open ended crises especially if I have no control as to what is going to happen next to me.
As a stage manager I could handle a crisis like a champ. Did the same when I was working in publishing. I could look at a problem and break it down while sifting through the possible solutions and alternatives Even in the worst of times, I had a date when this would be over and I could move on with my life either being the opening of the show or the publication of a book.
Since I was a child I have not cared for the nebulous. I wanted to know what was going on and when it would happen. The opened ended was not my friend. I knew when school started and ended. I knew how many years I would be in school. I counted down to Christmas.
We are receiving daily updates from Caroline’s school as things kept shifting. She got some answers about a couple of things that she needed answers for. But a lot of the rest is still up in the air including when school will resume and how it will resume. And even when whatever happens, there is going to be a learning curve as both the students and teachers adjust.
I still have a clench in my stomach and my brain will not take a break from worrying because I have nothing solid that I can plan for.
I am glad that I have medication to take the edge off. If this is how I am now, I dread how I would be feeling without it.
So we wait to find out what is next. We do what we need to do as responsible citizens and human beings. I am trying to help by writing these essays given people something new to read if they care to.
And I really hate waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I am grateful for everyone who has done a kindness for another person.
If this were a snowstorm or even a hurricane, we would have at least some idea of when the light at the end of the tunnel was not the oncoming train. Right now, we have an opened ended crisis with a lot of guessing as to what it next.
On the positive side of the equation, unlike a heavy snowstorm or hurricane, we have power, Wi-Fi, running water, and gas.
I will admit to not doing well with open ended crises especially if I have no control as to what is going to happen next to me.
As a stage manager I could handle a crisis like a champ. Did the same when I was working in publishing. I could look at a problem and break it down while sifting through the possible solutions and alternatives Even in the worst of times, I had a date when this would be over and I could move on with my life either being the opening of the show or the publication of a book.
Since I was a child I have not cared for the nebulous. I wanted to know what was going on and when it would happen. The opened ended was not my friend. I knew when school started and ended. I knew how many years I would be in school. I counted down to Christmas.
We are receiving daily updates from Caroline’s school as things kept shifting. She got some answers about a couple of things that she needed answers for. But a lot of the rest is still up in the air including when school will resume and how it will resume. And even when whatever happens, there is going to be a learning curve as both the students and teachers adjust.
I still have a clench in my stomach and my brain will not take a break from worrying because I have nothing solid that I can plan for.
I am glad that I have medication to take the edge off. If this is how I am now, I dread how I would be feeling without it.
So we wait to find out what is next. We do what we need to do as responsible citizens and human beings. I am trying to help by writing these essays given people something new to read if they care to.
And I really hate waiting for the other shoe to drop.
I am grateful for everyone who has done a kindness for another person.
