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Also we are half way through the month.
Caroline has a model UN function this weekend. She is looking forward to it.
I have the usual things to do because they must be done at least once a week.
I have been doing a lot of thinking recently. And I came to a few conclusions some of which are not filling me with happiness but I needed to think about to get to those conclusions.
I feel like I am in pause and have been for a while. I need to get out of pause and back to getting things done. Harder than it looks apparently. Motivation I have but follow through has not been my friend.
I have been avoiding the news although that is very hard to do. I have friends who have dedicated themselves to being public servants. They have worked as public servants not really caring whether it was the democrats or the republicans in charge. They just wanted to help with their skills. Now they don’t know if they will be getting a paycheck for the work they have to do because they are necessary and can’t be furlonged. They have children and pets and cars and mortgages. They have some saving but are worried about their fellow workers who are the cleaning crew or food service who were living pay check to pay check.
Then there are my friends who are seeing a serious dip in their earnings and hours because their customers are federal employees. This is not just in DC but in every state, city and town where there are federal departments, which is more than one would think. According to economists, we are tanking any gains our economy made with this shut down over something that a majority of Americans do not want. The minority is deciding what the rest of us have to live with and that’s not American.
It is just making me madder and madder and more depressed which is not where I need to be right now.
So I am going to curl up with some self-care. I am going to be focusing on me and my family.
I have no idea if that means I will be writing here or not. I am going to play it by ear.
But I have to do something because I cannot live the way I am surviving now.
Hugs to everyone. And take care of yourselves.
I am grateful for realizations that help rather than hurt.
Caroline has a model UN function this weekend. She is looking forward to it.
I have the usual things to do because they must be done at least once a week.
I have been doing a lot of thinking recently. And I came to a few conclusions some of which are not filling me with happiness but I needed to think about to get to those conclusions.
I feel like I am in pause and have been for a while. I need to get out of pause and back to getting things done. Harder than it looks apparently. Motivation I have but follow through has not been my friend.
I have been avoiding the news although that is very hard to do. I have friends who have dedicated themselves to being public servants. They have worked as public servants not really caring whether it was the democrats or the republicans in charge. They just wanted to help with their skills. Now they don’t know if they will be getting a paycheck for the work they have to do because they are necessary and can’t be furlonged. They have children and pets and cars and mortgages. They have some saving but are worried about their fellow workers who are the cleaning crew or food service who were living pay check to pay check.
Then there are my friends who are seeing a serious dip in their earnings and hours because their customers are federal employees. This is not just in DC but in every state, city and town where there are federal departments, which is more than one would think. According to economists, we are tanking any gains our economy made with this shut down over something that a majority of Americans do not want. The minority is deciding what the rest of us have to live with and that’s not American.
It is just making me madder and madder and more depressed which is not where I need to be right now.
So I am going to curl up with some self-care. I am going to be focusing on me and my family.
I have no idea if that means I will be writing here or not. I am going to play it by ear.
But I have to do something because I cannot live the way I am surviving now.
Hugs to everyone. And take care of yourselves.
I am grateful for realizations that help rather than hurt.
