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And February Begins
Feb. 1st, 2018 11:31 amSince it is the shortest month of the year, I am going to try to blog once a day for the month. Not going to make any promises but I will try.
A couple years ago I had finished all the bodies I needed for the Sherlock/Watson sets. This year I have nothing to show. I have ideas but no concrete objects to show. Not that I can anyway because I still can’t figure out a site that will allow me to show pictures on my blog that isn’t going to cost me $120 a year.
Today is very overcast both outside and inside me. I have hit the bad sleep patch that seems to be part of my yearly sleep cycle. Not that I can say that any part of the year is totally spiffy but some are worse than others. I recognize that I am in a depressive phase and need to work my way out of it.
I have a rant about reclaiming the word “Intellectual” but I am still mulling it over to figure out the best way to present it.
Farpoint is a week from tomorrow. I need to start getting us ready to go to the convention. I have to gather books and the like to sell on Friday. I have to prepare for the panels I will be on. Yes, I do prep to talk on panels.
Also I still have that cute idea I would like to execute before Farpoint. I have most of the materials needed just have to pattern and sew.
Motivation is not my friend right now as in we have seemed to have parted ways. And panic is not doing it for me right now. Not the best place to be in. But I promised myself I would be honest about this sort of stuff especially since I hope this helps someone else who may be beating themselves up due to a depressive episode. I know when I have put up previous behaviors I have at least one person tell me that it helped them.
Today I am going to try to do better and tomorrow better than that. If I can get the rock to the top of the hill and not have it roll down again, it will be fine.
I am grateful when I find out that I have helped someone.
A couple years ago I had finished all the bodies I needed for the Sherlock/Watson sets. This year I have nothing to show. I have ideas but no concrete objects to show. Not that I can anyway because I still can’t figure out a site that will allow me to show pictures on my blog that isn’t going to cost me $120 a year.
Today is very overcast both outside and inside me. I have hit the bad sleep patch that seems to be part of my yearly sleep cycle. Not that I can say that any part of the year is totally spiffy but some are worse than others. I recognize that I am in a depressive phase and need to work my way out of it.
I have a rant about reclaiming the word “Intellectual” but I am still mulling it over to figure out the best way to present it.
Farpoint is a week from tomorrow. I need to start getting us ready to go to the convention. I have to gather books and the like to sell on Friday. I have to prepare for the panels I will be on. Yes, I do prep to talk on panels.
Also I still have that cute idea I would like to execute before Farpoint. I have most of the materials needed just have to pattern and sew.
Motivation is not my friend right now as in we have seemed to have parted ways. And panic is not doing it for me right now. Not the best place to be in. But I promised myself I would be honest about this sort of stuff especially since I hope this helps someone else who may be beating themselves up due to a depressive episode. I know when I have put up previous behaviors I have at least one person tell me that it helped them.
Today I am going to try to do better and tomorrow better than that. If I can get the rock to the top of the hill and not have it roll down again, it will be fine.
I am grateful when I find out that I have helped someone.
