Remembering to Breathe

I have been taking a Tai Chi class for a while now. It has helped balance, joints, and body awareness. One of the things I have learned is how important it is to breathe and how not breathing correctly is not great for the body over all. I haven’t been the best about breathing normally recently. I find myself breathing very shallowly or holding my breath without realizing it. I have to pause and consciously remind myself to breath normally.

Part of this I think comes form all the recent unknown that has dropped into our lives. Waiting for Doctors to tell me news both good and bad and hoping that the good will out weigh the bad. Getting almost to the next step and then being stopped by various things. Not knowing when I will be able to go home and pet my cats. Not knowing when things will return to normal and knowing that they never really will but I would like to know what the new normal is.

Caroline wants to go back to school. She wants the routine and seeing her friends and teachers. I would like to get back to the house and some of the sort of routine that I have.

Now we know when we are going home. We have plane tickets tomorrow to fly back tomorrow. She wants to go back to school on Friday.

Peter is adjusting to the routine at rehab. He likes that he is wearing clothes rather than hospital gown and that he is being allowed and encouraged to do as much for himself as he can. He knows it is the beginning but at least it is beginning rather than sitting around wondering what he is going to do next.

We slowly are picking up the pieces of our lives and figuring out how they fit together. We are remembering how to breathe.

I am grateful for knowing when I will be home again.