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The Hunt Continues
May. 10th, 2005 08:31 amDidn’t get as much as I wanted to do yesterday but then what else is new. I ended up going back to sleep for a couple of hours since Caroline got me up really early. I did get the kitchen back in order post trip. This can be a challenge. I applied for 3 jobs in various fields in publishing. Peter found the song I am going to use for class Saturday.
The job hunt is getting me down again. I pulled myself out off that hole once only to recently slip back since I have not had a steady job with benefits for two years now. I feel like any job I apply for is an exercise in futility. I hear there have been many new jobs created and that the over-all jobless rate is down. Couldn’t tell it by the lack of response on Human Resource Departments to resumes. I mean even a “thanks but no thanks” would be nice. If I submitted a manuscript that was not accepted they would tell me. But a resume is no longer given the courtesy it once was. I have heard the argument that because they get so many but in this information age I know there are ways of setting up a macro that would fire off an e-mail with some sort of response with next to no time. I use to do it all the time at Del Rey for unsolicited manuscripts. Heck, I had 6 different versions of the letter to use depending on the situation. Instead I sit in frustration hoping to win what is rapidly becoming the job lottery.
I know I have other skills. I know I have this artistic bend. I know I love puppets and costumes and theater. I have done theater. Right now I don’t think I could take the hours needed to stage-manage a show. I would have to drop out of Caroline’s life during rehearsal. It would probably feel different if I was puppeteering, but not by much. Right now I am having a hard time motivating myself to do anything. Peter is encouraging me to do something to break me out of this funk. I think the Puppet Class is going to help because it is occupying my mind with new stuff to do.
I have a bunch of projects I want to do including starting the costumes for Shoreleave. I just have to budget my time better. I do have time and I am angry with myself for not using it better. So I am setting myself a goal today of getting my desk clean so I can type without bumping my wrist into stuff. And tomorrow I will set myself another goal. Piece by piece I am going to pull myself back together and out of my pit of despair.
I am grateful for the chances for a job.
The job hunt is getting me down again. I pulled myself out off that hole once only to recently slip back since I have not had a steady job with benefits for two years now. I feel like any job I apply for is an exercise in futility. I hear there have been many new jobs created and that the over-all jobless rate is down. Couldn’t tell it by the lack of response on Human Resource Departments to resumes. I mean even a “thanks but no thanks” would be nice. If I submitted a manuscript that was not accepted they would tell me. But a resume is no longer given the courtesy it once was. I have heard the argument that because they get so many but in this information age I know there are ways of setting up a macro that would fire off an e-mail with some sort of response with next to no time. I use to do it all the time at Del Rey for unsolicited manuscripts. Heck, I had 6 different versions of the letter to use depending on the situation. Instead I sit in frustration hoping to win what is rapidly becoming the job lottery.
I know I have other skills. I know I have this artistic bend. I know I love puppets and costumes and theater. I have done theater. Right now I don’t think I could take the hours needed to stage-manage a show. I would have to drop out of Caroline’s life during rehearsal. It would probably feel different if I was puppeteering, but not by much. Right now I am having a hard time motivating myself to do anything. Peter is encouraging me to do something to break me out of this funk. I think the Puppet Class is going to help because it is occupying my mind with new stuff to do.
I have a bunch of projects I want to do including starting the costumes for Shoreleave. I just have to budget my time better. I do have time and I am angry with myself for not using it better. So I am setting myself a goal today of getting my desk clean so I can type without bumping my wrist into stuff. And tomorrow I will set myself another goal. Piece by piece I am going to pull myself back together and out of my pit of despair.
I am grateful for the chances for a job.
