2004-05-11

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2004-05-11 09:16 am

Wasted Days and Wasted Nights....Well Not Really

I really don’t like it when I get to the end of the day and I don’t feel like I accomplished all I could accomplish that day or anything at all. I know, intellectually, that I have done quite a bit in a day. It is just that nagging feeling in my gut that I could have done more. Some times I think I sabotage my expectations of what I can accomplish in a day with thinking I can do more than is possible. Then there are the times that reality shows up and bits me on the bum.

I have had a headache for the past couple of days which has been playing havoc with my doing anything. It goes from a dull throb to agonizing pain back to a dull throb. It seems to be tied in with my sinuses and the current pollen count so I am hoping that it will go away soon. The headache has been making it hard to do anything. I feel like I am swimming through a fog. I did exercise the other day hoping that blood flow might help the headache. Nope not really but it didn’t make it worse. Now I am behind on a bunch of projects I need to get in gear on. This leads to frustration with the situation which I have limited control over .

I am going to take a deep breath and regroup. I just have to keep telling myself that this isn’t cancer research.