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puppetmaker ([personal profile] puppetmaker) wrote2016-04-20 07:49 am

The Right Hand doesn't know what the Left Hand is doing

I am dyslexic, which for long time readers isn’t news.

I didn't know that I was dyslexic until I was a freshman in college. I managed to hide my issues rather well without knowing that I was doing so.

I do know that I had no idea until the fourth grade that there was a difference between left and right. I had heard the concept but it had no meaning to me. Left became that if I dropped both arms to the side of my desk, my watch would click as it hit the metal on the side of my desk. North, South, East and West were another set of issues.

I still have a hard time with quickly figuring out my left and right. I have worked around it and if I really focus I can sort it out. And I have been given all the ‘well if you look at your hands then your left hand forms an L’ unless you happen to be looking at the palms of your hands. You write right handed so you should be able to remember which hand you write with right? Nope. Not always. ‘You should know this by now’ is not helpful at all and I get very frustrated when I can’t summon that knowledge with the ease of most folks.

I flip letters around all the time. I figured out how to read and I am very fast at reading but my brain has a way of reading that is different than most of people. Apparently, from what they could figure out, I see letters as a set that stands for something rather than individual letters that compose a word. The order is not as important to me. Birthday is a good example as my family can tell you how many happy brithday cards they got from me. Spell check is a godsend to me. I retain what I read for a very long time. Being such a good reader probably kept teachers from realizing what was going on with me. I was just a poor speller who needed to apply herself.

Trying to learn a foreign language is close to impossible. I took German for two years in high school and two years in college and could barely spell correctly. I had to give up French after a year because I was that bad at it.

And names, I am horrible at names. Remember people’s names is hard enough. Pronouncing them without hearing someone else say the name is a no go. I have accidently called people by the wrong name because I can’t see the letters in the name. I associate it with a person. And we aren’t talking complex names either. Last names are a total crap shoot. I only recently learned how to pronounce one of my favorite author’s last name because I heard them say it. Now when I look at the name, I can finally see the combination of letters that would make the sounds that are the name. Until I heard it, my brain could not sort out the letters to make sense to me. I just associated it with a book series that I love.

So if I have met you and can’t recall your name, please forgive me. My brain just doesn’t work that way. Or if I mispronounce your name, which I hate doing, I do apologize but it is just how my brain is wired.

I am grateful for when I can tell my left from my right.

[identity profile] ericadawn16.livejournal.com 2016-04-20 12:41 pm (UTC)(link)

(Hugs)


Did you have problems tying shoes or is that just dyscalculia?

[identity profile] puppetmaker40.livejournal.com 2016-04-21 12:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I am dynamite at knots. All kinds of knots both tying and untying. I am also really good at untangling marionettes.

[identity profile] ericadawn16.livejournal.com 2016-04-22 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, okay, I was wondering because a lot of the things you mentioned are also true with Dyscalculia. I didn't learn to tie my own shoes until I was 6 and I have to act like I'm going to write something in order to know right or left. I still sometimes have problems with analog clocks and watches even though I find them prettier. The main difference is letters are my friends but numbers want to jump around all over the place. I go very slowly when copying long numbers.

[identity profile] klwilliams.livejournal.com 2016-04-20 06:39 pm (UTC)(link)
When I was a little kid we said the Pledge of Allegiance every morning, with our right hand over our hearts. I learned to tell right from left by saying to myself "right hand over your heart" and doing the rote action I associated with those words. I can still feel the thump when my hand hit my chest. I don't need to do it anymore, but that helped for years.

[identity profile] puppetmaker40.livejournal.com 2016-04-21 12:40 pm (UTC)(link)
That's a good one. I think we all eventually figure out something that allows us to express the concept of right and left.

I hate when people say "you should know that by now"

[identity profile] sulky-girl.livejournal.com 2016-04-21 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Oddly enough my friends mom was taught to read that way...makes you wonder if the teacher was dyslexic? They were taught the shapes of words and not the sounds associated with the letters. It does make it very difficult when you come across a new word and have no way to figure it out.

[identity profile] trinalin.livejournal.com 2016-04-22 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
No dyslexia here, but I cannot do left/right without thinking hard about it. My dad is still amused by this aspect of me. I'm OK with NSEW though. Go figure!