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puppetmaker) wrote2020-01-10 09:50 am
puppetmaker) wrote2020-01-10 09:50 am
Mental Health and the Impossible Task
Warning for frank talk about depression and mental health. I know it is not everyone’s cuppa so feel free to skip and I will get back to talking about puppets and the family shortly.
I have things to do today but this is important to me because I really hope it helps others to pass this information on.,
Yesterday I found an article on Facebook that described something I have been dealing with or not dealing with and beating myself up internally. It was a blinding moment of clarity and I wanted to share it.
The article on bored panda was taken from the tweets of M. Molly Backes (mollybackes on twitter) and can be found here.
She starts it with the following “Depression commercials always mention sadness but they never mention that sneaky symptom every depressed person knows all too well: the Impossible Task.”
“The Impossible Task could be anything: going to the bank, refilling a prescription, making your bed, checking your mail, paying a bill. From the outside, its sudden impossibility makes no sense.”
Oh, I know that feeling all too well. And she is correct that from the outside it looks a little crazy.
It might be something that you have done a million times but it seems impossible to do when you hit a million and one.
The psychiatrist might call it ‘executive disfunction’ which I have heard before, but I didn’t feel it was relevant to me.
This makes so much sense to me. And it is not logical. The problem being that the longer you delay the harder it is to do the task. The things pile up and a ten-minute task can become the entire day or week to get it done.
This is not only for depression but a laundry list of other mental health diagnosis that end up with the Impossible Task.
I feel frozen and can’t get myself to take that step I need to take to just get the task done and the longer it goes on, the harder it can be to just get the task done. I end up wasting my time trying to get the energy together. And that stinks so I end up beating myself up for wasting time and the task that is still not done. It is a vicious circle.
I will say since I have been under a psychiatrist care, I am improving. I have been able to get things done that had seem impossible before. But there are still those tasks that I look at and groan. However, I am not beating myself up right now but creating a plan of attack so I can do those tasks. Which is a lot better than I had been doing.
Interestingly I find myself more recently spending less time noodling on the Internet which I find good. I hope to continue this trend and get more done by wasting less time. But I am not going to get mad at myself if I do find myself occasionally just poking around.
I can now recognize things that are turning into the Impossible Task and can find ways to get to become less overwhelming.
Depression is a tricky beast. It tells you falsehoods that you believe to be true when they are not. It is so much more than feeling sad and worthless. It can take over your life and guide it down a very dark path. You learn tricks to deal with it but the pull can still be there.
I have gotten help before it turned deadly but it was a near thing. I recognize the fast that my brain chemistry is not the best and I need help from time to time to get me back to center.
I am grateful for everything that makes my tasks got from Impossible to Possible.
I have things to do today but this is important to me because I really hope it helps others to pass this information on.,
Yesterday I found an article on Facebook that described something I have been dealing with or not dealing with and beating myself up internally. It was a blinding moment of clarity and I wanted to share it.
The article on bored panda was taken from the tweets of M. Molly Backes (
mollybackes on twitter) and can be found here.She starts it with the following “Depression commercials always mention sadness but they never mention that sneaky symptom every depressed person knows all too well: the Impossible Task.”
“The Impossible Task could be anything: going to the bank, refilling a prescription, making your bed, checking your mail, paying a bill. From the outside, its sudden impossibility makes no sense.”
Oh, I know that feeling all too well. And she is correct that from the outside it looks a little crazy.
It might be something that you have done a million times but it seems impossible to do when you hit a million and one.
The psychiatrist might call it ‘executive disfunction’ which I have heard before, but I didn’t feel it was relevant to me.
This makes so much sense to me. And it is not logical. The problem being that the longer you delay the harder it is to do the task. The things pile up and a ten-minute task can become the entire day or week to get it done.
This is not only for depression but a laundry list of other mental health diagnosis that end up with the Impossible Task.
I feel frozen and can’t get myself to take that step I need to take to just get the task done and the longer it goes on, the harder it can be to just get the task done. I end up wasting my time trying to get the energy together. And that stinks so I end up beating myself up for wasting time and the task that is still not done. It is a vicious circle.
I will say since I have been under a psychiatrist care, I am improving. I have been able to get things done that had seem impossible before. But there are still those tasks that I look at and groan. However, I am not beating myself up right now but creating a plan of attack so I can do those tasks. Which is a lot better than I had been doing.
Interestingly I find myself more recently spending less time noodling on the Internet which I find good. I hope to continue this trend and get more done by wasting less time. But I am not going to get mad at myself if I do find myself occasionally just poking around.
I can now recognize things that are turning into the Impossible Task and can find ways to get to become less overwhelming.
Depression is a tricky beast. It tells you falsehoods that you believe to be true when they are not. It is so much more than feeling sad and worthless. It can take over your life and guide it down a very dark path. You learn tricks to deal with it but the pull can still be there.
I have gotten help before it turned deadly but it was a near thing. I recognize the fast that my brain chemistry is not the best and I need help from time to time to get me back to center.
I am grateful for everything that makes my tasks got from Impossible to Possible.