Suicide is never a logical solution, no matter how it presents itself.

Depression is a liar. Depression tells you lies like "You'll never be rid of me, so don't even try." "Medication won't work." "Medication means you're weak." "Therapy is a waste of time." and so on. It's like it has a survival instinct that it uses to steer you to the darkest places and keep you stuck there.

You hope you're not falling for any of those old tricks, and I hope you find the help you need to get better.